I am a girl in transition; still a wife and mother, yes, but
still in transition. Three of my four
children have gone out the door to school, and yes they are back by 3pm, yet I
am in transition. Extra time not spent
peace keeping nine children can lend its self to many pursuits. Unfortunately, watching Care Bears with
Natalie has netted the lions share as I’ve been struggling with what’s next for
me.
Sweet Natalie has enjoyed the nail painting, I’ve enjoyed that too. One on one time is certainly hard to come
by. A little friend to bake with, color
with and play softball with is a rare gift indeed. But, and here’s the honest but, it is mind
numbingly boring. There, I spit it
out. Don’t hate me or think I don’t
appreciate my life. It’s hard to be home
alone with a three year old. I know that
this season will pass as all do. I just
needed to get that out.
When I was five, I wanted nothing more than to be a
mommy. In High School it was that I
wanted to be a writer. What now?
If moving 752 miles away from family has taught me anything,
it’s that change is inevitable. Rather
than fighting it or fearing it, why not embrace it? I want to show my kids how not to be
afraid.
That’s what my pumpkin roll baking is….a lesson to them and
I not to hide talents, but to use them.
Did it stink to not sell a lot at the two craft shows I went to? Yes, it was embarrassing; but, I learned from
it. I choose to not stop putting myself
out there because I might have a rough time of it. In regards to cooking contests, I will still
compete even if I don’t always win. I am
not a quitter and I don’t want my kids to learn that from me.
What I do want for my children (as if I get a say) is for
them to 1. Love the Lord. He has been my
rock and strong tower when all that was familiar was left behind. 2. I want them to follow their dreams, no matter
how big. 3. I want them to never give
up. I know that the best way to teach
that to them is to walk it out with courage and boldness every day that God
gives me.
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